Friday, May 05, 2006

Open Universities Australia: 3

I just found a comment posted through the Blogger system, and don't have any idea how long it's been there. Please forgive me, CNWB, I wasn't ignoring you, just didn't know you'd said anything. Blogger commenting shouldn't be working, sorry, and I didn't know it was.

And now to today's little drama. I've quit philosophy. Bailed out. The plane was going down and I jumped. I probably decided this weeks ago, but wouldn't admit it until now, the day the second essay is due, the essay I haven't done, and can't do, and won't do.
I don't know why I've done this, what the hell is wrong with me. I've been trying to make sense of it and can't. What have I done? Or not done? Why can't I handle one single undergraduate unit when I've got all the time in the world and no excuses? It'd make a hell of a lot more sense if it made sense, you know :)

Damn it.

I just wanted to mark this event with a blog post. I'm not looking for advice or support or criticism (and comments are still turned off anyway, so nar nar). I started the course, and didn't finish it, and that's the way it went. If it ever makes more sense than this, I might do another post about it. Surely there's something in this I'm supposed to learn, but God only knows what at the moment.

Anyway, and probably redundantly, I'd like to suggest to anybody interested in online study: maybe doing just one unit to start with is a good idea. See how you go before you sign up for a whole course. I'd be feeling a hell of a lot worse if I'd just blown a lot more money, put it that way.

I started this little OUA adventure with a Simpsons quote, so let’s finish with another one:**
Marge: I think Bart and Lisa are feeling a little upset right now. Isn't there something you'd like to say?
Homer: There sure is. Kids, you tried your best, and you failed miserably. The lesson is, never try.
Oh, shut up.



Procrastination was a big factor in all this, and needs work, shall we say. I tried some of the techniques in these articles (thank you, Matty) and in particular found the second one really useful:

- Procrastination (California Polytechnic State University)
- Overcoming Procrastination (Steve Pavlina)

The idea of starting again, and again, and again... "If you simply start a task enough times, you will eventually finish it." There's something good and do-able in that. (Kind of like getting out of bed every morning, really.)

**From Burns' Heir written by Jack Richdale